Sleepless nights….

Lonely

The moon is bright tonight darling

But my soul is crying

The stars are aligned tonight darling

When my heart is broken

Longed your embrace like you used to

For I didn’t disappear just to amused you

And tonite  is perfect darling

But,  I am a mess and sick of being used

 

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The Woman In Me

I will not be your favorite girl 

Nor I’ll be your angel

For I am not perfect

I may need you to hold me today  and tell me everything will be okay

And tomorrow,  I may just want you to go away

I can be cold as icei

Or warm as a freshly baked country bread

I am happy

I am sad

I am a child and independent

I am crazy

I am serious

This is who I am

So you will not find a barbie doll in me

But I will be your woman

Now and forever

  

 

I Love You

I love you to the point that it’s hard to say no, and a part of myself is lost 

From independence

From selfishness

I love you to the point that I’m willing to sacrifice anything beyond my mortality just to see you smile

I love you to the point that I deny the truth and believe a lie even when it burns

But,  there is a part of me that wants to fuck you up and tell you to get lost

And screw your drama

Screw the heartache

Screw this suffering

But all my rememberings of our sweet quiet moments, your acceptance of me, and these little things we call memories we’ve built through the years is stronger 

Than suffering

Than heartache

Than drama

And when all is said and done 

My dearest I may say I’m tired of You from time to time

But don’t give up on me

For I’m going to love you forever and ever  and ever

No Other Girl

Think of me always

Speak of me only with kindness

Dream of me in your sleep

And when you close your eyes, say my name with a whisper like the gentle wind of spring

For I am the girl who loved you all the way,  and She just picked up the pieces of my shattered heart you wrecked.

And She will cry when You start to miss me

A girl like me is hard to forget. 

You Infect Me

I miss you

Why did you have to go

Didn’t I do everything  you wanted me to do 

Didn’t I begged you to stay

In this cold room I lay in our bed full of memories smelling your cologne still fresh on this pillow soaked with tears

And called your name over and over as if this pain and sorrow will somehow bring you back to me

You were like a dream that I once knew

I’d never thought of my life without you

It feels so long ago 

This distance between us is so lonely it hurts

Now that you’re gone 

The Man I love

You are everything I want to have and everything is alive when you’re around

You’d call,  and I’d leave my life behind

I’m addicted to you

So please make it last

Stay  a little longer

Embrace me a little tighter

Kiss me as if I’m the One

Lay with me longer  

Dine with me

Why don’t You

For I am just  the girl crazy enough to make you stay

 

 

 

One Day

There are times I take for granted the simple things in life

Complaining about the places we go and see in almost every weekend of everyday: the beach, the hike, or just being home with you watching the television

I even hate the fact that we ran out of things to do and people to see

And get tired of you

Of Us

I blame you for my boredom

I  cuss at you for being an ordinary man that you are

I despite us  for having nothing but Us

I don’t want to take walks with you anymore

I refuse your embrace

Give me something fun to do or let me be

But then I realize that one day,  there will be no more you or me

One day, I will miss You and your love

Together, there will be no more walks by the sea 

Nor  a warm body next to me when feeling scared or sad 

And no more to come home to 

With no one waiting for me

For one day,  we will say our last goodbye

To this precious fragile life

And You and Me will be forgotten

One Day

My Sacrifice

When you said it would never work, You and Me
It felt  like burn that wouldn’t heal
And left a scar of the love you couldn’t give; A constant reminder of you
I gave it all and risked it all
God damn it; It was all for you
But still, I’m  all alone

A time to love

There is a time for everything
Though  everything was not perfect
At least that’s what I’ve remembered
For there were moments of tears
Of broken heart and of shattered  dreams and promises  that I’d never knew would come until I’d gave my heart away
Over and over until nothing more was left to give
And then there was You
The You who gave me life and love
The You I’d come to know and trust
And from this moment, my love
I cannot promise a perfect romance
But love eternal
There is a time for everything
And the time is now with You and Me
In this journey

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